Pink-Please Don't Leave Me

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Da da da, da da

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time I've kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
Da da da, da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is broken
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Da da da, da da

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Oh please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry
Da da da, da da

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Please, please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)

Baby please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no

You say I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back
It's gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

mIsSinG 'him'

i will be more lonely for these 3days as he is not here. i really regretted because i was not really spent our time together well. lately i was so stress, so many things come in n make my life miserable. until, i really can't take it anymore n i cry a lot!! i feel so mad to everyone, i just feel that i'm the 'dummest' person ever.. i'm really sad n can't cope with it anymore. i cry cry n cry. i know that it may looks stupid as crying can't solve my problems but i really try hard to not cry but i really can't control myself. i cried all night yesterday until my eyes swollen. i don't have any idea who i should tell my problems to, n suddenly i feel like i want to tell 'him'. first time since our know each other i really cried n told 'him' bout my problems n what did i feel. i really can't control the tears from falling down. n 'he' listened to me, all the words that come from my mouth n he really felt the same. as we shared the sober. 'he' is a really really good partner as he cares a lot bout me. i really felt appreciated as 'he' treated me this way. i really thank to 'him' cause always by my side. i really grateful to have someone that really understanding, loving n caring as 'him'. so sorry for treating u badly those days. thank you so much b cause be a very patient n caring partner. thank you so much. i'm really missing u rite now n waiting for u.................

can't sleep

i can't sleep!!

now it was late at night but i just can't sleep. i slept so many hours before, so now i have the difficulties to get back to sleep. hurmmm..thanks to my b for being so understanding. i love u b. hurmm. just like a little kid i still can't manage myself well. haha. sometimes i'm so messy.

today, i'm not really sleepy in class. i got it was really exciting learning my grammar subject. Mr Teoh said ' Lily is happy and smiling when she is learning LDS.' Then i suddenly heard my roomate, Farahida said, 'Tengok la roomate siapa?'. haha. it is not my first time, smiling or laughing in LDS class as Mr Teoh, my grammar lecturer is so funny. He likes to make jokes in class. But actually i try to pay more intention in class as my last exam result was bad or can i say it was worst! hurmm.. i'm not really good in English actually but my mom said i was. this is because i always get A's for my English subject since i was in primary school. i never know that i'm good in it but i just enjoy learning English rather than Bahasa. i felt so sorry for my lecturers as i'm not performing well. i'm not good n i know that i need to improve myself. i need to work harder. but sometimes i just lost. i'm so sorry. i try to remind myself to focus on my aim before i came here, i want to improve self, i want to be better, i know that i deserve it. i just need to change, i won't give up as need to do something for my future. i need to be someone..........

cyg comey

cyg, b tau cyg bnyk problm sume...b lau ley nak sgt2 tlng cyg b nie sttlekan sume mslah cyg...b xtau pe yg sbnr nye tgh brlaku kat chort korang...but b hrp sgt2 syg dpt kngsi ngan b...cyg slalu ckap yg cyg rse lost sume, but pe gne b kat cni...b sntsa brhrap cyg cter smthng lau cyg de pe2 prob...i know that some of ur members do not give full coopertion with each other but i really3 hope that u can manages urself very well so that u do not involvee or influenced by them k...i know that u are a strng woman, uhe a very3 good sprit n u never giveup easily rght...i know that...i'll alwys here 4 u cyg...so,dont make ur life become worst for all this problem...u must try hard to inprve urself everyday k...b akn sntasa spprt cyg b cwng nie wlau pe2 pon...so, b hrap cyg jgn cpat pts asa,jgn pkr bkan2...b ykin cyg sorng yg tabah n ley hdpi sume bnde k...

u know what...
i really5 luvvvvvvvvvvvvvv u so muchhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
chaiyok99999 cyg!!!!!!!!!11
mmmmmmmmmuahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tuk cyg....
(^_^)

S i c k . . .

i'm really sick today. really heart broken. just feel like want to give up life. staying far away from family really testing me. i feel worst just now as each time the 'teacher' pushing us to perform better, to be proactive. what kind of proactive that she really means?? some more, my 'dearest' course members really don't make any sign to improve self. still want to stay with their bolshiness. never think bout own mistakes. people like to criticize and gossip bout others, always talk bad bout others, just like they are perfect. i'm afraid as i will be influenced, i really don't want to be one of them. i just wanna be myself. now, i really miss my friends when i was in secondary school, miss my best friend, Ana n i really miss my family. it has been almost a month since last break i didn't back to my hometown, my home. i feel like crazy being here. honestly, i lost my spirit. i just feel that i'm not belong here. i have problem with myself, i just don't know why but i miss myself. it is really out of control n i almost did not know my own self. i'm really in sober right now. i start hating myself...because i'm too weak. i miss home. i'm really s i c k. s o s

MelaTah!!!!hA4!!!

cyg b de habit yg sgt klakar....
ble die kne geletek,die akn melatah...
yg unik nye,die akn mngcapkan p'taan yg cme...
jdk soalnnye,apkah prktaan yg d sebut tu???

A. ohh mak ayah meletup dua2

B. ohh mak ko mltup kebaboOmmm

C. ohh ak ko mltup mak ayh

D. OHH MAK KO MLTUP AK KO

jdk,cyg kne plih jwpan yg btol ag sahih...
lau btol b ag grand prize....
mmmmuahhh!mmmuahhh!mmmuahhh!!!mmmmuahhh!!!kat cyg...'
(^_^)

M Y B O R I N G W E E K E N D -_-

I have gone trough a very boring weekend. i was just sleeping -_- zzz + watching movies all the time..haha(have no idea on how i wanna spend my weekend)..have no budget to go out,hanging with ma friend, also for a date. i'm broke now. i woke up late for these 2 days in weekend and slept all d time + watched movies. Yet, today ma roomate was not here as she went to somewhere n i was left alone here.. wawaaa(malang sunnguh...).. i watched so many movies ( Chuck season2, A moment to remember, Gambling apocalypse kaiji, Inkheart and also How to train your dragon ). i watched How to train your dragon once again as i have to accompany ma beloved roomate (sapa suruh gtal2 tngok dlu..wawaaaa).. i love watching most of those movies, especially A moment to Remember (korean movie). This movie is a damn sad movie..ma friend downloaded dis movie n gave it to me. i watched it with ma roomate n guess what had happened next??we both cried!!!!hahah!!!(layan tl cte ni) This is 1st time for both of us enjoy watching movie together..huuu~This movie is bout a couple who are really happy being together as they are in love n get married, their happiness is not remain as the wife got Alzheimer and start to forget things even her beloved husband!!i cried when watching this movie till d end............how can life b so cruel????especially for a very happy couple!!

i wasted my weekend but i really enjoy watching movies!!(^_^)

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i was really happy when i received a call from ma best friend ana. we both have a very looooong talk on the phone. i really miss her!!!ana is the greatest friend i ever had as she knew that i need someone to talk with, so she made a call. we have a very long conversation as we have so many things to talk about!! i felt much better now...thanks ana for being so understanding and considerate..love you damn much!!

ListEniNg to...........

PIECES OF ME - Ashlee Simpson

On a Monday I am waiting 
Tuesday, I am fading 
And by Wednesday I can't sleep
 Then the phone rings, I hear you 
And the darkness is a clear view Cause you've come to rescue me  
Fall, with you I fall so fast
 I can hardly catch my breath
 I hope it last
  [Chorus]
 Ohhhh It seems like I can finally 
Rest my head on something real 
I like the way that feels Ohhhh
 It's as if you know me better 
Than I ever knew myself 
I love how you can tell 
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
 All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me 
 I am moody and messy
 I get restless and it's senseless 
How you never seem to care  
When I'm angry you listen 
Make me happy it's your mission 
And you won't stop till I'm there 
Fall, sometimes I fall so fast
 When I hit that bottom crash
 You're all I have
  [Chorus]
Ohhhh It seems like I can finally 
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhh
It's as if you know me better  
Than I ever knew myself 
I love how you can tell 
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me  
How do you know 
Everything I'm about to say
 Am I that obvious 
And if it's written on my face
 I hope it never goes away
 Yeah  
On a Monday I am waiting
And by Tuesday I am fading 
Into your arms 
So I can breathe 
 [Chorus] 
Ohhhh 
It seems like I can finally 
Rest my head on something real 
I like the way that feels 
Ohhhh 
It's as if you know me better 
Than I ever knew myself 
I love how you can tell 
Ohhhh 
I love how you can tell 
Ohhhh 
I love how you can tell 
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me 
All the Pieces, pieces, pieces of me

paRt oF mY mEssY hearTBeaTs

what will u do when u r in my situation???

when someone whom is ur friend had really hurting u then selamba ja wt cm xde pape??hurmmm maybe i'm too sensitive but the other friend of mine also said to me as she also keep wondering on how did i feel on that time as she also notice what had happened..honestly, mmg gram...i though that it was my fault as i'm too sensitive, but i really never felt bad like dis way before.it make me sick as i still have to consider her feeling and still care bout her as she's still a friend of mine....don't know la...maybe i look so stupid so she think that it is not wrong to treat me that way..........................

as she seem to be so nice in front of others....nothing more can i say....

what did i do now????

still treat her like before and listen to whatever she's going to tell me without saying anything...

just listen listen listen n see what happen.......................

tHink bOut ThinKinG??????

think bout thinking???hurmmm...actually think bout what r u thinking...it was the 1st time i heard such things by my lecturer..it keeps me wonder n start to think bout it..mdm quote this from a book n it really struck to my heart n make me think bout it...yes...its true that people usually are not realize in what they are thinking or in d other words they are sub-conscious towards what they are thinking...n i think it is true(in my opinion larr)...people are not realize in what they r thinking n they always tend to think bout something negatively rather than take it positively...(not all but mostly-still in my opinion)..hurmmm me, myself without conscious is one of them...huhuu~n i think the negative thought would be barriers to make self improvement or changes..so, it will lead to bad results in what we r in or what we r doing..n i learnt from this lecture that mind is the most crucial thing as it will lead us on what we r going to do n going to be...it will give effects on how we will perform ourself...so, after dis i have to think wisely on what am i thinking as i really want to improve myself.............

PLUS++++++

BEST THINKERS............

• r thinking bout what they r thinking
• r highly purposeful
• have intellectual tools to raise their thinking
• distinguish thought n desire
• will think and take thinking analyze
• will determine the strength and weaknesses

LiFe iS cOmpLiCatEd!!!!!

" Zahir kau lihat bukan segala-gala

Bibir tersenyum menutup jiwa yang luka

Zahir kau lihat hanya antara lapis

Mataku sinar bergenang tangis "

arghhhhhh!!!!!

srabutnye kpale ni!!!

bestnye la kalau boleh a simple person...

'x payah pkir.....'

hurmmmm bgusnye la kalau boleh jdk mcm tu..

xde la srabut je kpale ni..

hurmmmmm i'm not a pretender but sometimes I have to pretend as I have no choice

pretending or hurting others???

kalau la hidup boleh jdk mcn cte dlm komik kn bgs...

happy..sempoi je...

kdg2 bosan gk hidup,

tp xkn nk mati lak??amalan xckup lg...

fuhhhhhh...

complicatednyeeeerrr...........=(

lOst mY minD...

sorry...

just don't know whats wrong with me

really sorry for behave dat way....