People and changes T____T

Assalamualaikum...

sunyinya~

kiuk. kiuk. kiuk.

T______T.

*sound effect bila sunyi, mcm kt dalam TV

(mengarut)

Tiba la ke dunia yang realiti yang sangat nyata, memang hidup ni bukanlah selalunya macam honey-bunney-moon. Sekarang ni hostel ni memang sunyi yang teramat sangat, semua orang da balik bercuti bersuka-ria untuk cuti deepavali ni. tapi aku??? "tinggal la hang sorang-sorang weh~ " Dapat balik xmo balik kan...humphhhh~ bukan apa cuti sem tinggal lagi berapa minggu je lagi. Terasa rugi pulak la nak balik, nanti hujung sem nak balik lagi. Lagipun jimat duit kocek (buleh la enjoy kat sini. hehe. ada udang disebalik mee). It's ok i still can handle it, bila boring kita tidur la. pejam celik pejam celik habis cuti seminggu. *optimis a.k.a sedapkan hati. And most surprisingly, my roomie pun xbalik!!!!hehe~ *ada geng!!!

Eh. eh. itu semua emosi yang yang tak terkawal. Mari bubuh FULL STOP. toinnkk! FULL STOP!

Sekarang nak cakap hal ehwal yang berkaitan dengan tajuk entry ye. People and changes or Manusia dan perubahan (skema pulak T_____T). Percaya xsemua benda kat dunia ni berubah dan boleh berubah. Especially human = manusia ataupun orang *mengarut lagi~ T___T. xde sebenarnya nak cakap kadang-kadang aku terfikir, senangnya manusia ni berubah. Hari ni kita best friend, esok kita tak. hari ni kita kawan, esok kita musuh. hari ni kita saudara, esok kita strangers. Macam-macam ada, dan macam-macam boleh jadi sekelip mata je.

Dulu, I had a friend, a very BEST friend(sebab dulu jadi guna ayat past tense ye) but now i'm not sure because we are no longer kept in touch but still i always think and worry about her. Masa kami berkawan zaman sekolah dulu, she was a very timid girl ( i mean she is small and has cute characters) and i treated her like she was my younger sister as she seemed to be dependent. Selalu je dia menangis sebab benda-benda kecik, and dia senang sangat terasa hati. Bak kata seorang kawan, "Hati macam tisu" *kelakar pulak bila ingat balik. Aku mengaku jugak la sebagai manusia biasa kadang-kadang ada masanya rasa irritated, tapi she was a very great and loyal friend as she never left me behind. Love her loads!

Mungkin takdir, kitorang dapat masuk kolej matrikulasi yang sama after finished our secondary school. Semenjak tu kitorang jadi macam belangkas, everything we did and everywhere we went, we were together. Banyak jugak masa-masa yang kitorang ada 'cold war' tapi sekejap je la, lepas tu baik semula. After a month, aku dapat tawaran untuk pergi maktab (yela. cita-cita nak jadik lecturer xkesampaian so jadik la cikgu). I knew she cried so hard after knowing I decided to go further my studies in maktab. Rasa serba salah dan berat hati sangat-sangat, tapi i really need to go *faham xperasaan tu?rasa macam kena tinggalkan husband pulak.

Semenjak aku pindah masuk maktab yang indah ni aku mula jarang contact dengan dia, and i also didn't know why dia pun macam dah xberapa nak contact aku lagi, so we lost the tract. Sekarang ni aku just 'stalk' dia dari FB and she seems fine. But, I start to see a 'new' her, no more that timid little girl like when we were in the past time. Maybe it is all good for her, what i can do now is praying for all the best and greatest in life. Dear friend.. i love you so much ^____^ pray for your well-beings ~

Semua orang dah berubah. Keadaan dah berubah. Masa pun dah berlalu. Aku rasa aku sendiri pun dah banyak berubah, for good or not tu you all la yang tentukan ye. But surely i did change a lot! Dulu, aku banyak Hu Ha Hu Ha (enjoy), sekarang dah kurang sikit. dulu banyak buat stupid things, sekarang dah x lagi (mungkin ada maybe something less stupid). dulu banyak terasa hati, sensetif, nangis berendam air mata (Hati Tisu), sekarang x lagi (tough sikit la kot sekarang) . *kira dah matang ke ni?? Ish!x cakap ea..tapi maybe la sebab umur dah meningkat jadi ada perasaan macam dah matang sikit. Kalau x mtang lagi pun, dah mula la ada rasa nak kena jadi matang sikit. I'm no longer school-er, no longer belasan tahun-girl. Now i'm twenty so maybe i need to grow up and be a little bit mature. heheh. Bak kata nenek, "Dah boleh kawen dah!"*that was what she said okeh!

Yet, still i know i still have a lot more ahead me that i have to treasure and learn more in a way to be a better person and be more 'human'. Semua (tujukan pada semua orang), maafkan saya atas semua salah silap dan mungkin perubahan saya ni mendatangkan kekecewaan pada sesetengah pihak (jadi polite sikit sebab betul-betul nak mintak maaf). Maaf~ T____T

I'm just an ordinary human being with so many "incompleteness"..

bitter-coffee-tasted evening

Assalamualaikum..

tiba-tiba harini terasa nak berblogging +__+

Today supposed to be a very enjoyable day but it turned the other way round. humph~ =___=" . don't know why maybe because it feels like being here for too long, plus, i'm not going home for this one-week holiday (homesick). baru-baru ni terasa agak xberapa sihat, tambah pulak dengan kerja yang melambak + UAK (Ujian Akhir Kursus), jadi terasa sangat-sangat nak emo n letih. The 'enjoyable day' that i mentioned before is because today we had an OPEN ASRAMA DAY, so for today we were free to get into boys' hostels as well as the boys, they could get into ours. For this time my hostel came out with the decoration based on INDIAN theme. SO, guess what??they played a very loud INDIAN songs early in the morning!!GOD!!=____= i'm speechless but though it was a bit hilarious and fun. I enjoyed the dancing performance by the Indian girl. amazed. wow! ^___^

full stop. (unhappy vs. amazed there)

kisah semalam. We had our exhibition for Literasi Bahasa and grateful it was a success (to me...hehe.). Agak meriah jugak la, xsngka pulak adik-adik prasekolah nak datang ke pameran kami. Pameran kali ni adalah bagi penilaian n pembentangan projek bagi bahan-bahan ABM (alat bantu mengajar) kami. Seriously semalam memang enjoy n terasa berbaloi walaupun penat. seriously, it worth bagi semua penat lelah tidur lambat n duit yang kami dah spent. Alhamdulillah.

(grateful)

petang ni, i'm sitting in front of my lappy updating my blog while sipping my bitter-tasted coffee.

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Do you need therapy??

Assalamualaikum..

for today's entry i just want to share something that i found interesting..

Recently I had an assignment on "book as healer". Have you ever heard something about BIBLIOTHERAPY? "biblio" means book and "therapy" means to heal.

They use literature to treat mental, emotional and nervous disorder. It is cool right? How does it work??Usually ppl. use this kind of approach to children for the mean to help them cope with problems or issues in lives. By using bibliotherapy you may help ppl. especially children to work through the stress in their lives and develop their coping skills by sharing literature and having conversation about book together.

The first thing that you must do for bibliotherapy is choosing an appropriate or the right book which related to one's issue or concern. For example, if you have stubborn and naughty brothers that love to play poorly with others like mine, you should find books that are related to them. Once you tell the story they may find the story similar to their situation and start to have conversation about their issue. While you are reading the story toward the ending, they will internalize and see how the character in the story dealt with their similar issue. This will help and guide them to do so. You may say something about their mischievous behaviour and give them some advice.

I think it is really awesome to have bibliotherapy as an approach and this is the cool part of learning literature! ^___^

half-closed eyes -____+

Assalamualaikum...

huaargghhhh~

i'm typing now with half-closed eyes.

so damn tired.

-____+!!

but. still want to write something here.

half-smiled face

=__+

Just now I handed in my assignment on Children's Literature. fuhhhh! *amat lega. I sent it late than others. Do you know why?? This sleepy-head me fell asleep and did overslept last night with half-done assignment on her desk!! She woke up at 7.12 am and got class at 8.oo am. could u imagine that? she went to class with all her crumpled 'baju kurung' and 'tudung' and all the undone assignments! She went mad after she did't have had her 'compulsory breakfast' and starved herself. Now, with her half-closed eyes she does 'blogging' to tell her unlucky messy things that happened to her today~

With her half-closed eyes now she wants to say good bye and off to her 'space' in her laladreamland. -_____-Zzz

HECTIC!!!HECTIC!!!!

Assalamualaikum....

fuhh..lamanyerr xberblogging....

Beberapa minggu ni kembalilah aku ke dunia aku yang sangat HECTIC ni..assignment sana sini, melambak-lambak sampai xmenang tangan nak buat, xcampur lagi ngn aktiviti-aktiviti maktab lagi..hurmmm..siapa kata belajar kat maktab ni senang buleh goyang kaki???meh sini nak ketuk sikit orang tuh!!!penat tau x??lebih kurang je dengan study kat IPTA + IPTS yang lain tau. Lagi lah bila amik TESL kat sini. bagi anak campuran JAWA + BANJAR macam aku ni speaking English memang la xsenang. cakap pung pang pung pang bahasa Melayu , belajar bahasa omputeh, buku assignment, xkira la apa semua dalam BI. Lain la kalau aku memang dah dok kat oversea bertahun cam certain people ok la jugak. Ni zaman sekolah speaking pun xpernah. hua.hua. Pandai-pandai la nak hidup.

Pagi tadi baru je lepas pengelolaan pertandingan bola jaring. jangan tanya kenapa kena kelola pertandingan, hampa ingat masuk maktab amik course bahasa inggeris belajar bahasa inggeris je ke??jangan mimpi la. gerko(sukan permainan) ada, Bahasa Melayu ada, Agama ada dan macam-macam lagi la. tapi alhamdulillah la jugak tu semua ikut sukatan sem. certain2 sem je ada subjek2 tu semua. hehe. aku xkelola pun, just main je tadi. hihi(curi tulang). xdela. just took the opportunity to gain new experience. senang la nanti sekurang-kurangmya keluar mengajar ada advantage tau la sikit-sikit pasal sport-sport ni. setiap sem aku tukar jenis permainan..heheh;)

For the next week pulak kami ada TESL NITE. n the best and greatest part is we have to plan a performance during that night. jadi to make it simple n easy for everyone of us we just plan to have Coral Speaking based on our daily campus life. xpayah nak serabut-serabut kepala. tambah la lagi 1 kerja. huuu~but, i think the outcome for our short-preparation-time performance is not bad. so just wait n see ok?..

Hurmm disebabkan lama xmengupdate, banyak la cerita yang ketinggalan dan ditinggalkan. Jadi ni nak back tract sikit ea..last week kami warga Tesl ada event dinner which called TESL RAYA. Even though that event agak banyak kecacatcelaan dari segi organization tapi alhamdulillah la majlis tu berjaya disempurnakan. Thanks a lot pada kawan-kawan yang banyak bertungkus lumus untuk menjayakan event tu. That was our first time organizing such event and we have to admit that we have to improve a lot in some areas. At least we did learn something. gladly. we did.(Tiba2 quote switching) haha!

#1 TESL RAYA for TESL family

#2 Bright Red!

#3 Surprise birthday celebration for Kizza ^__^

#4 Sweet couples!

#5 Sasa and 'Bilis'

(just joking)

Sarah and Anisah

#6 Dearie Roomie *___*

#7 Lastly, me.

-------The End of Tesl Raya-------

Now, I have to continue typing my undone assignmentssssssssss!!!!!!bye =)