Assalamualaikum....
Here, I am typing, telling about my feelings out loud again~
I'm start living like a sane. More sane I think compared to those times when I lost my direction. Feeling lost in life. Really lost. Thinking. Yes, love is great and I'm grateful for having love in life.
The feelings of loving someone and being loved by someone. I'm grateful for that.
Even until now.
I don't regret and I won't regret anymore.
Surely, there were times when I regretted things but when I am thinking about it, I shouldn't regret. Things happened with reasons and Allah is the best planner of all. I believe in Allah and I should always have faith in Him. He is my creator. He plans the best for me. For 'us'.
Maybe..we will end up with someone else in life. We never know. I just want to say when I still have the chance that I won't regret for knowing you and making you a special one in life. If and only if I want to regret about something, it is me, I regret for not being able to control and taking care of myself better as a 'muslimah' and a daughter to my parents.
To that person, that man...I just have that faith that I know you better than anyone else(except your parents.maybe.) even after all the things that had happened. I still have faith in you. The feelings of knowing someone by heart. I know that you're a nice guy, a nice man, a nice person...so, I don't regret knowing you. Everyone has issues in life, bad days, darkest time and whatever we call it and so do you as you are also a human with no exception. It just that how one handles 'things' is different but I think I'm fine with that and you have to be fine with that too. Take your own pace. Slowly figure out things. You will be okay.You will be better. You will be fine. Believe me.
I'm hoping and praying that Allah will always bless you, ease everything for you..
Experiences in life, our falls, our 'injuries', our 'pains' will always teach us to be better and stronger in life. Stay still and stand tall. Never lose faith in Him, in life, in self, in Qada' and Qadar.
I think there were times when I said that I found my Mr. Perfect. I think that person is still a Mr. Perfect in my eyes.
"Beauty in appearance may fade away, but beauty in heart will remain..."
To that someone,
You have a very beautiful heart. Remain calm and find your 'true self'.
Thanks for always taking care of me even in your own way that others may not see or understand. Even myself.
To that someone,
I'm grateful and thank you so much. You are wonderful just the way you are.
For this one and a half year..please bear with me.
