mIsSinG 'him'

i will be more lonely for these 3days as he is not here. i really regretted because i was not really spent our time together well. lately i was so stress, so many things come in n make my life miserable. until, i really can't take it anymore n i cry a lot!! i feel so mad to everyone, i just feel that i'm the 'dummest' person ever.. i'm really sad n can't cope with it anymore. i cry cry n cry. i know that it may looks stupid as crying can't solve my problems but i really try hard to not cry but i really can't control myself. i cried all night yesterday until my eyes swollen. i don't have any idea who i should tell my problems to, n suddenly i feel like i want to tell 'him'. first time since our know each other i really cried n told 'him' bout my problems n what did i feel. i really can't control the tears from falling down. n 'he' listened to me, all the words that come from my mouth n he really felt the same. as we shared the sober. 'he' is a really really good partner as he cares a lot bout me. i really felt appreciated as 'he' treated me this way. i really thank to 'him' cause always by my side. i really grateful to have someone that really understanding, loving n caring as 'him'. so sorry for treating u badly those days. thank you so much b cause be a very patient n caring partner. thank you so much. i'm really missing u rite now n waiting for u.................