aPaKah haRi iNi???

mlm ni cm blur2 la...bosannn.td tngok cte Megan Fox, 'Jennifer's Body'..wow!!!cte ni extremely superb!!!haha..best giler..meremang bulu roma tngok.huhu.

sbnrnye mlm ni spttnye sy n rakan2 ribena sy wt props for our dramatization on Macbeth, but suddenly a few of my friends have to complete the bulletin as they need to hand it in tomorrow..'morrow never see' (ayat schu sbg Lady Macbeth dlm drama. hahaha). so, now i'm free!!!not really free, i have essay to be complited and make preparation for tomorrow debate but..............(hurmmm.. wat selamba badak je. haha) bored la..ngah cari feel ni nk wt 'keje sekola' hihi..

hurmmmm..tonight xleh kcau 'die'. as tomorrow he has last exam paper, Math. so, i just don't want to disturb him as he need to focus for tomorrow. tp sat jela..mlm skit t kcau balik..hihi~'b....chaiyok2!!!!'

hurmmm what should i do now????

???????????????????????????????????????????????

blur...............................

huu~

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sy dan mereka :

i'm a person who studies in training teachers college..

it is a gift from my college..(haha..hadiah la sgt kn??)

hurmmm..itulah kalung yg slalu tergantung kt leher sy..

tp matric card tu palik sket,nme je matric card tp nombor matrik xde pn..hahaha~

'pelik tp benar'

sy xtau pn nombor matrik sy..huu~

cbe teka pe 2???

haha!tu la sepit rambut sy, i called it 'ketam'

it is a gift from my b..

not sure whether he or his friend yg plih..

it is quite big for me, but it is really nice n comfort..

so, thanks b..

hihii~

these are my another things.

purple is my colour..

that is my purse and it was given by my friend on my 18th birthday..

thanks~

and yg lg 1 tu sarung for my phone..

who gave it to me????

me, myself..haha~

beli sendiri la...

i can't really remember where did i get it from...

i think maybe i got the phone cover when my sis n i went to Air Hitam, then suddenly i saw it n it is catchy, looks sweet so tnpa berfikir panjang sy pn beli la..haha~

hurmmmm skali pndang xsure apakah ia..

tp 2 kali pndang, la....tabung rupanya...

hahahhaha...

this was given by one of my close senior..

she is really nice.

she gave it to me on the teacher's day..

(plik jgak la, i'm not yet a teacher. tp org da bg amik jela kn??hihii~)

hurmmm..

tp persoalannya, boleh ke ni nk mnyimpan duit ni???

hihiiii~

what will you do????

huuuuuu~

(mengeluh panjang)

i really don't know what to do. i have a friend that removed me from her list of friends in Facebook. i'm not worry or 'kcik hati' for what she has done as i understand how does she feel. Instead i really worry about her. she really determines to get out from this institute as she feels that no one does like her. But, she has no idea about that. actually people do love her, but she behaves in such way that people can't accept and she always misuses people's trust, even her own friends. That's why people start avoiding her. i try to tell her but i really don't have the idea on how am i going to tell her about this, i'm really afraid that i will insult her. i know that this is not right n i'm not a really good friend. she may think that i have stabbed her back but she never know that i LOVE her as a friend. i really do want to tell her as i don't want her to think that she has been isolated but i don't have the strength to tell her the truth for the reasons why people keep avoiding her. she is not a bad person, but she never realizes that the way she treats people make people treat her that way. To the person that i has mentioned, you are not bad n people are not hating you, just you are the one who should ask yourself, what you have done. people do love you and give you chances to change but you didn't realize and didn't appreciate it. i do love you. sorry for not being a very good friend...............

lalalalalalalaaaaaaaa......

today???

i woke up late..

today????

is 24th of may 2010

today???

is monday

today???

i really love him

today???

i called my mom n i miss her damn much!!

today???

everything goes smoothly..

today???

is 24th of May 2010...

so,

today...

is 'our' ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!

hooreyyyyyy!!!

happy anniversary b!!!!

sorry for being late wishing you..

huuu~

but late is better than never...(hihiii..kn2???)

I LOVE U B!!!

today, i was so happy as i just called my mom. my mom suddenly became a very talkative person, unlike before she always ended up my call earlier. she told me about so many things, my sister has a new boyfriend, my dad whom misses me tried so many times to call me, and she also told "akak, balik nanti kak farah nk ajak akak dgn iz pergi kursus skor A" (hurmmm cm bese la...die da wt schedule da..ni lom smpai rumah lg ni...huuuuu)..hurmmm...that is my MOM...(slalu dok kalut..hihiii)

i know that she misses me..n dad also..i miss them all..

my sister,k.fara..

i am not really know what happen to her but according to what my mom said, "akak mogok lg,die xckp ngn ibu, mkn pn jarang2, akak tu da mkin kurus da" and also, "akak da ada boyfriend baru.." (hurmmm xtau la kesahihan cte ibu ni..hihii..sbb bese interpretation ibu xsme ngn ape yg jdk..hihiii) i really know my sister, if she won't speak n keep isolate herself from people that means she has problems. she always burden herself with problems, she doesn't want to share and tell people about her problems. she always 'moody' and i will be the victim to be scolded by her. but, at all i never hate her instead i really respect and love her. she is the only sister that i have and she is the greatest one!!!I LOVE YOU!!!!

my dad....

he is a very busy kind of man..(kalah perdana menteri tau)..he never expresses his feeling, whether he loves me or not. but, i really sure that he loves me even he never tell me. maybe he loves me more than my siblings because i know that we used to be closed when i was really young. he never visits me or sends me here as i study far away from our hometown. i know that he loves and cares for me, he never comes to see me or even says anything when i said that i want to continue my study in Penang. i know that he was reluctant to let me go, but he never said so. he didn't even send me for the registration day. until one of my friends asked me whether i still have dad, and i answered "yes, i have. he just doesn't have time to send me here".

he was really busy. but, i still believe that dad loves me. my mom told me just now that my dad misses me. he tried to call me but he doesn't even have my number!!that is my dad....i really know that he loves me n i also LOVE HIM....

H.A.P.P.Y A.N.N.I.V.E.R.S.A.R.Y

tnggal 24/5/2010...

genap la hbngn kmi selama 10 bulan...

wlupn bkn 10 thun...

tp bnyk knngn tlah kmi lalui brsme...

b nak ucp time ksh bnyk2 kat syg...

sbb dpt brsme ngan b slme 10 bln ni...

wlupn bnyk dgaan nyg brlku...

tp kte still brsme wlu pe2 pon...

b akn jge syg elok2...

i wnt our rltionship last 4ever...

i'll alwys love u...

i'll alwys here 4 u...

b akn pstikan hbngn kte kkl slmenye...

b akn ag spnuh ksh syg b kat cyg...

b akn cntrate n try 2 spnt mre time wth u...

b nak cyg sntse slse ngan b...

SYG...

I LOVE U SO MUCHHH....

IREALLY2 LOVE 2 WITH ALL MY HEART...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SYG...

J.A.L.A.N - J.A.L.A.N

Yesterday, both of us had a very nice outing. we rented a car 4 a whole saturday.our 1st location was 'Taman Rimba'. it was really fun. the man-made waterfall is quite nice with fresh air and cold water. main air smpai jari kebas..hihiii..hurmmm it was a very nice place!!for the first time i jumped into the water. i screamed a lot. huhu~we both had our lunch at tesco(mcm biasa la..haha~)sgt kenyang!!then,at night we had our special menu at Gelugor (mkn mee kuah tulang)sedap sgt...but i didn't finish mine...mkn separuh je,sparuh lg cm bese la, msuk tabung kebajikan(perut b sy..hihiihiii~) he finished his n mine (1and a 1/2 bowl)!!!!..hurmmm luckily i have him...hihii..since we still had time, we went to the cinema and watched movie at QB(Queensbay mall).I was really happy as we watched the latest Gerard Butler and Jennifer Aniston movie on 'Bounty Hunter'. It was a really great movie!! I really enjoyed't............

The most unforgettable memory is when both of us finally stopped in front of Happy Mart and ate maggie as we had nowhere to go..hihihiiii....we spent our night in front of the mart and had a very nice conversation...........

Thanks to 'you' because spent the time for me..i really had good time with 'you' n it is an unforgettable memory for me, ever......................................

????????????

hissshhhhh....xtau la npe arini...rse nk mrah je....1bdan rse lmbik cgt..rse kpale ni da nk mletop la...hukhukhuk=(..sy xepi la..suddenly all the bad things come up 2 my mind..rse skt ati yg tramat sgt...mngapakah???S.O.S..suddenly trase cm pnt cgt..nk mrh tp xtau cmne nk luah..xmo mrh,xske mrh..tp gram sgt2..trase bnci kt dri sndri..ya Allah...mgkn blik umh not the best option 4 me but at least it can be the cure for all my disappointment..i really need to meet my family...ibu ayah abg akk n adk....i really need to see all of u..knape trase bban ni mkin brat..sy je ke yg slalu rse cmni???sy je ke yg xnormal???i have no answer for my own question..spe yg nk bg jwpn ni???someone please help me...once again i lost myself.......how should i end up all this?????????????

sy blur lg...

hurmmm ntah la...

lately slalu cgt bgn lbt...bgn pn cm blur2 je..xtau la..lately ni rse cm lost cgt...i just can't really put myself into something..even time blaja pn rse blurr je..

arini bgn lbt lg.....

10.30pg bru tul2 bgn...2 pn msih lg brmalas2an kt ats ktil...ya Allah xsmgtnyeee...

i'm totally lost rite now.....sblm ni ad cll ibu n i thought that i wanna tell ibu bout my probs,but then ble pkr lek lau cte msti ibu ssh ati...i know my mom...nmpk je mcm ok t kn die ssh ati die lak xleh tdi mlm...so....i didn't tell her...huuuuu~i really wanna cry when i heard my brother's voice..i really miss him...i miss my family...i rteally wanna back home...sick of being here...

i called 'him' then, but he was studying at that time, so won't tell him...i didn't want to disturb him as he was studying...he will seat for exam this tuesday so i just didn't let him know bout this...

then, nsib sy jd lg mlang ble kantoi lbt g klas...whuuu~mlng ditimpa tangga...hukhukhuk...sbnrnye 1 kls kne tgkap by 1 of our lecturers sbb lbt g kls....abs kecoh 1 department as she said ktowg ni xde disiplin la pela....hurmmm sje je nk wt kecah 1 dunie....ta phm tul la...pdahal ktowg bru 1st time tul2 dtg lbt cmni 1 kls...tp cre die treat ktowg cm ktowg dh wt slah bsar gler..huuuu~yg lg plik,course len xpnh pn kne tgkap xdtg kls slame ni,turn ktowg siap kne wt surat tunjuk sbb..hurmmm nsib la amk course ni, mmg mlang....huuu~

xpsal2 ktowg dpt free moral lecture dr lcturer ktowg n cried a lot when the lecturer tried tto find our fault..sje je nk knekn ktowg...obvious sgt,mgkn owg akn ckp sy je yg rse cm2 tp mslah my whole klas pn rse cm2...jdk nmpk cgt la lcturer 2 sje nk knekn ktowg kn???

hurmmmm...ta phm tul la....huuu~

hurmmm stressnyeerrr!!!!!ni nk wt keje pn dh xsmgt...hukhukhuk=(

START TO THINK..?????

" Seek first to understand before we understood "

Mdm. Yasmin quotes this to us..

Today i learnt a lot from her

She is an English Studies lecturer but she is also our counselor and our advisor

She is such a very nice person

She always tried her best to make us change

She tried hard to make us realise..

' Failed once never mean that you'll fail forever '

I really respect her.....

TODAY

She told us about mind as she has read a book of CRITICAL THINKING

"Mostly humans uncritically assume that their minds will take care of themselves"

Without we realise we are the one of the people who think and assume our mind this way.

"The best thinkers make that unconscious relationship conscious and deliberate"

"We are our mind"

We have to mind our thinking and think rationally, control our feeling and work on things as to have the positive results.

'We are our mind' as we have to be conscious on what was in our mind, on we were thinking since people tend to take things negatively.

We are the one who should control our mind, never let mind control us as we will be misled.

"The best thinkers are masters of their minds, of their thoughts, of their feelings, of their desires"

B.A.D D.A.Y

smthng weird hppned to me...
arghhhhhhh!!!!

i was cried in front of my gurl...
i looked like a stupid guy...
i felt very ashame to her...
arghhhh!!!so sorry...

i realized that i have made many mistakes...
i controlled her too much...
i made her frust n sad...
soo sorry...

i don't know...
why i too easily jeaolus with her...'
i trust her but...
i still felt the same feeling...
so sorry...

i don't know...
what i'm going to do now...
i loved her so much...
but.............

i don't know...
how to treat my special girl well...
i tried my best...
but still felt that i did not treat her well...

i must think harder...
i must do smethng to change...
sorry my dear 4 all the mistakes that i have done to u....

luv u so muchhhhhhh...
mmmmuah!!!!!!!!!!!

K.A.M.I

'FRIEND IS NEED IS A FRIEND IN DEED'

I really love my friends

friends......

thanks for always being by my side..

HOPEFULLY OURS IS AN ENDLESS ONE!!

my lovely dearest best friend ever!!!

be friend since 6 years ago..

share all the tears and the laughter

'gila2 pn sama2..'

hohooo...

ANA............

I LOVE YOU DAMN MUCH!!!

KIZZA

si pelik tapi benar..

nice but sometimes unpredictable..

gila tp normal ( ha????)

kihkihkih(^_^)

undefine......

but she is really a good friend!!

THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIEND!!

LOVE YOU!!

H.O.M.E.S.I.C.K ! !

Skrg jam kt laptop ni dh mnunjukkn pkul 3.4o mlm. but actually mlm ke pg ek??hurmmm...tp still xmo pjam mte ni.xtau la npe.wait 4 a call that had promised by someone but 'it' did not make it.tp xksh pn.i just can't sleep.weekend ni truk tl, bkn weekend yg truk actually but it was me..haha.i spent most of my times on watching movies.hurmm slept late at nite, then woke up late (wat keje gile)..

Lately, rse rndu sgt nk blik umh.tp nk blik kne tggu cti.bln 6.....brjnggut tggu, kcing pn dh brtnduk, i have to wait 5 more weeks to back to my hometown. i thought that i have suffered enough here n been here for a very long time but actually i still hve another 5 more weeks to go. uwaaaaaaa!!!!!it drives me crazy!!wanna back home!!Even i know that i would not be so happy stay at home but at least people didn't drive me nut!!

I really hope that i can back home now n see my family n my dear cats..(hurmm...cm dk kcik je kn??mrengek-rengek nk blik.haha).but i'm really missing home rite now.rndu nk dgr suare ibu bubbling, dgr suare ayh marah, dgr suare my 3 monkeys brgaduh, my beloved sister gives her lectures n my cats menge-ow..hurmmm really miss all those voices.

i have a very unique family, really different from others. sblm ni me n my sis slalu mrungut, 'knape la fmily kte ni xsme cm fmily org len...' (not sure whether i should make it as exclaimatory or interrogative statement,whuhu) But now i start to understand n accept it, mine is not same as others but mine is still a family n i love mine. when i think bout it over back maybe i don't really have the answer but i think maybe i don't have to find why, bcause people are always complaining on what they have, everything is just not good enough. maybe i should stop from being like others, i should be more appreciate on what do i have, i have to be grateful..

mom dad, no matter what happen i will always love u..............

i'm so sorry for not being someone that u can really proud of but i will always try to..

love u mom,dad.....