once again i'm thinking....

i'm thinking
thinking almost about everything..

ssh ke nk hidup??
x..hidup xssh tp nk hidup dgn bek mybe ssh.
ak xtau la hidup ak ni ktegori sng or ssh.
tp ak slalu ssh ati.
(kre ssh la kn???) *cnfuse..

org kte lau kte slalu ssh ati, xdpt ktenangan mksdnye kte smakin jauh dr tuhan kte.
maybe ak jauh dr Allah dats why ak slalu 'jiwa kcau'.
ad org kte ak 'happy go lucky' , friendly..
ad org kte ak sombong, sensetive...

ntah la.pd ak life is unpredictable.
ak pn xdpt nk kwal emosi ak.
smetmes ak rse nk pluk sume org, nk ketawa xhenti,
tp ad mse ak rse nk teriak skuat ati, nk mrah sume org..
plik????
ntah la.

mgkin ak jauh dr Allah.
ak ngaku ak xsbek mne, ak xslahkn spe2.
ak rse dr ni xlengkap tp ak jgak rse ak ni xkuat.
i've lost my own self.

ibu slalu ckp, "bkn sng nk sng.."
ak xnfikan mmg xsng nk sng.

'Ya Allah bg la ak jln.bkn ksengn ak pinta tp ktenangn........aminnn'