sy tak sekola!!!!!!

Assalamualikum...

alohaaaaaaa!!!!
skrg ak msih lg bercti.. hehe..
best gk jdk student maktb ni.cti sme ngn dak SEKOLA. walaupn ak mcm diSEKOLAkn semula tp seronok gk sbb dpt bnyak cti.
hihihiii..
ari2 ak plan nk br'picnic' kt air terjun Gunung Ledang tp disbbkn 'bos BESAR' xshat plan trpkse cancel..huhuuu=(
tp xpela, at least ak dpt blaja drive..
buat pngethuan sume ak da lme ad lsen mtor n kete
tp xtau la knape ak trase 'phobia' sgt nk drive kete..
da byk kli ak dpt 'lecture FREE' dr family ak n 'bos BESAR'..huhuu..
ntah la maybe sbb ak ni byk sgt pkr bkn2..yela idup kn skali je..
lau xcident kt jln mati xbrbaloi..
*ad ke org yg pkr cm ak ni????
hurmmmm ble ak ckp cmni kt 'bos BESAR' die kte "lau mcm 2 wt pe amk lsen???"
ak pn trpkr gk npe ak amk lsen ek????hihii..
ak xtau la...
mggigil je rse ble try drive kete..huuu..
tp ak jeles gk tgok kwn2 ak sume da bwk kete smpi ujung dunie..
ak ni je...hihiii *[takutttttt (~_~!!) ]

tp ape2 pn ak nk 'highlight'kn disini ak da BERJAYA DRIVE KETE!!!!!!
waaaaweeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
ehehhehe(^_^)
sernok je rse!!!
ats bntuan dn bntuan 'bos BESAR' ak berjaya mnunjukkn skill drive kete yg da berkarat ni..hihiii...
yela slame ni lsen ak wt tyangan je dlm purse..hehe..

p/s: jgn pndg org sbelah mte ea.......

hurmmm cti2 gk tp mkn ubt xleh cti..huuu...
ak xtau la ak ni skt pe...
org kte kulit ak ni 'alergy'
tp xtau 'alergy' pd pe..
tiap kli ak trase pns n brpluh ak msti kne gtal2..
abis bngkak2..
ak igt lg 1st time ak kne ni mse ak form3,ya Allah mse tuhan jela yg tau cmne prasaan ak..huuu...
trase nk ggit org je,gtal yg amt sgt...1st time ak kne 2 kt mke...
abs bbir ak bngkak..
da la ari2 ak kne nek stage tuk amk adiah smpena bln kmerdekaan..
*hehe..ad bkat mwarna tau..
ak xtau nk ckp cmne yg pntg, disbbkn trpakse nek jugk stage dgn bbir yg mnjuih (bngkak) ala Angelina Jolie jdk ak pn ttup mlut dgn sbelah tgn
n sbelah lg tgn ak cover la ken ak tkut trsingkap nek tngge kn..
ak pn amk la adiah dr pngetua n cover2 nk ckp trime ksih..
yg ak pliknye sume org pndg ak len mcm,diowg pndg plik je...
ak igtkn ad pe,rpe2nye dsbbkn ak nk cover bbir ak yg mnjuih 2 ken ak trsingkap tnggi mse nek tgge.....MALUUUUUU woooo!!!!!
lau ak tau ak wt2 xde je biar org len amkkn adiah 2..
yg ak xthn ad org wt cte ckp ak sngaje selak ken nk tnuuk betis...
uiisssshhh!!!mmg pnas la kn????ak cm nk tenyeh2 je spe yg wt mlut 2 kn....huuuuu..sbar2...
tp ble ak pkr lek nk trgelak je rse..huhuu..

skrg ni ak still kne lg 'pnyakit' ni..
xsmpai stngah jam ak brdiri mle la die brmaharajalela..
trase mnjalar je kt kaki ak..
abs bngkak2..
ak pnh check kt hospital dlu tp doktor pn xdpt nk ckp ak ni alergy kt pe..
abs ubat ak telan,injection ak amk...darah pn die da check..
tp ak still kne jugak..
xpela...
org kte skt 2 pnghapus dose..
walupn ak da mcm bruk asyik mnggaru tp kre ok la ak dpt pnyakit yg xskt..
hihiii..

once again i'm thinking....

i'm thinking
thinking almost about everything..

ssh ke nk hidup??
x..hidup xssh tp nk hidup dgn bek mybe ssh.
ak xtau la hidup ak ni ktegori sng or ssh.
tp ak slalu ssh ati.
(kre ssh la kn???) *cnfuse..

org kte lau kte slalu ssh ati, xdpt ktenangan mksdnye kte smakin jauh dr tuhan kte.
maybe ak jauh dr Allah dats why ak slalu 'jiwa kcau'.
ad org kte ak 'happy go lucky' , friendly..
ad org kte ak sombong, sensetive...

ntah la.pd ak life is unpredictable.
ak pn xdpt nk kwal emosi ak.
smetmes ak rse nk pluk sume org, nk ketawa xhenti,
tp ad mse ak rse nk teriak skuat ati, nk mrah sume org..
plik????
ntah la.

mgkin ak jauh dr Allah.
ak ngaku ak xsbek mne, ak xslahkn spe2.
ak rse dr ni xlengkap tp ak jgak rse ak ni xkuat.
i've lost my own self.

ibu slalu ckp, "bkn sng nk sng.."
ak xnfikan mmg xsng nk sng.

'Ya Allah bg la ak jln.bkn ksengn ak pinta tp ktenangn........aminnn'

FINAL PAPER!!!!

assalamualaikum..

hihiii...

mengupdate sepantas kilat arini.

today, i still have the last paper!

hihi...

doakn ye.

hurmmm.SOCIAL STUDIES,da abs prepare???

xtau la...

huuuu..

cm blur je nk study pe jdk sy mngambil kputusan utk mluangkn sket mse utk mng'update'

blog ni.

xsbar nk abs paper.cpat la mse brlalu.xthn mnanggung tkanan prasaan ni.fuhhhhhh..

ok la.

CIK BONGA, mari STUDY!!!!!!(^____^)

apa nk buat ek????

aslmkm.

owhh suda lme xmngupdate blog ini...

lptop ku telah dilanda pnyakit..

*haha ayt poyo..

huishhh..xtau la lptop asyk brmasalah je pdahal bru lpas format.

mmg nk kne hntar g hospital la ni da mogok sgt.

huuu...

skrg ni ak ngah diambang final exam...

fuhhhhhhh!!!seram je rse..

ya Allah xtau la cmne t result.

rsaunyeerrr..tkuttttt.

honestly la ak ckp ak cm xperform well tuk exam..

rsau gk.

ntah la.nk kte xminat course ak ni xgk.

ni xtau la stiap kli nk wt revision rse otak ni cm da tepu sgt tau..

HUURRRRMMMM

apa nk buat lau paper da dkat tp otak xleh nk study lg???

nk on9???

lappie rosak

(ni pn pnjm sat kwnnye lappie.hihiiii...=) )

nk kuar???

xleh....

seronok sgt t xigt dnie lak.da la elaun xmsuk lg.

n ura2 mngatekn elaun bln ni kne ptong.

fuhhhh!!!!!dhsyat tl.elaun da msuk lbt nk kne ptong lak 2.

xtau la cmne nk survive nih.

nk mtk bntuan PAMA???

uishhhhh!!!tbal da ni ha mke ni..

xmo!xmo!xmo!

huhuuu...

trpakse jgak la ak mguatkan smngat yg xbrape nk kuat ni STUDY.

chaiyok3!!!!!

study la.

smentara msih ad pluang ni.

haha!next week killer paper.

paper ptang lak 2.

SEMOGA BERJAYA!!!!

*ckp kt dri sendiri

study..study..study

2 paper lg pastu g le lek umah berpoya2.

yuhuuuuu!!!!

ak pn plik la..

cmne la ak leh amk course ni.

xpnh tr'impi' pn nk amk course yg mlibatkn BAHASA

mmg la nsib bdn.

haha!

dlu ak slalu ckp,"xmgkin la ak amk course BAHASA,ak bkn org SASTERA."

haha!xnk2 skrg da kne amk.

huuuuuu..

redha la ye..

da plih kne truskn

(mngikut plihn ibu..whuu~)

org kata lau kte ikt ckp org tua, hidup berkat.

aminnnn..

hrap2 cm2 la..

ok la.....mlm ni xleh nk duduk relax lg..

mari study!!!

oppppSS!!!lpe nk ckp.

mtk maaf la ye layout page ni jdk ksong.xtau pe da jdk yg ak da dlete

hehee..

biar jela ea..

huuuuuu....

meng'UPDATE' =)

TESL night for TESLIAN FAMILY

alooooo..

hiiiii=)

ksibukan mlanda jdk xsmpat nk update blog.

tp cte2 BASI ni ttp nk ku ctekn.

*haha SKEMA..buweeekk!!

alkisah AHAD lps kami keluarga tesl ad mlm TESLian.

mcm mlm gala la knon nye.

theme : MOVIE CHARACTER

krna ak mrasakn bnd ini sgt mbuang duit dn tidak pnting maka ak pn dgn smpoinye pki bju pe yg ad je.

mls nk lyn.

lgpn pnt je nk pkr ak nk jd character ape.

haha!lntak la org nk ckp pe pn.

brat ati sbnrnye nk mlangkah kaki g majlis 2 tp nk wt cmne da nme ak trsenarai dlm list persembhn.

cisss!!!!nsih bek ak msuk koir je.

kbtulan lak koir the 1st performance after the opening speech of our 'BELOVED DIRECTOR'

latihn pnye la sempoi sbb ak pm miss 2 3 ari practice,

tp nsib bek leh catch up lek.

tp mlngnyer mse ari performance suara ak tbe ilng.haha!

lyrics pn ak lpe.mmg la spoilt!

tp akk sr. ak ckp, "xpe, dik kte hntam je nyanyi, akk pn xigt jgak."

ak blur...???*&%#

plik sgt ni,xigt lyrics nk nyanyi pe?sempoi abs.

hihi..

sbnrnye ktowg da wt recording tuk back up sound.

yg bestnye after performance diowg sume suke koir 2.haha!

plik kn???

tp mmg ak pn agk ske.hihi.

1st time koir 'THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA' haha.

soprano belaka.hiiii=)

ha!mlm ni mmg our cohort performance for short drama gler nye best!!!

*gler excited mse tgok.ak mnjerit skuat ati.rse tl2 cm org gler.hihi

(bru trsipu2 malu ble igt lek.*blushing)

siyesly ak ENJOY performance diowg.

gler SEMPOI+LAWAK

huhu..

SY BANGGA MNJADI AHLI COHORT 3!!

korg the BEST!!!!

(biar la pe org nk kte pn.buweekkk!!!)

congrate KAWAN2!!

(abaikn sliper2 yg bersepah kt blakng tu.hihi..)

haha!ni for the 1st time Dini pki dress!!!wowwww!!!

gler faminine..hikhikhik..

iktkn die ne pki skirt2,dress2 ni.

haha!

dsebbkn die pgng watak KAKAK TIRI (rock!!!) die pn trpkse la mrendahkn k'sempoi'an

die yg slalu brjeans n tshirt.haha!

*ganas die jdk kakak tiri even pki dress.hakhak.

hihi...

ad cm mke Tiz Zaqyah xdie ni??

she is best friend of mine.

rmai org ckp mke die cm Tiz tau.

tp version maktab la.

hihiiiiii....

walaupn ak lek awl, sblm mjlis 2 abs tp to be honest ak agk enjoy mlm TESL NIGHT sbb ak ske tgok performance kwn2 ak.

hihiii..

lynkn jeeeeeee...

(^_^)

BUDAK NAKAL ; )

Arini ari sukn tlah brjlan ngn jayanya.

ak pnye la poyo mle2 xnk trun pdang krn trlalu mngasihani dan simpati kpd mata ku yg tramat layu pg td.

dgn pnuh kmalasn ak mnggagahkn diri g mndi n siap2.

niat ati ni nk PONTENG (haha!jhat gler kn?)

(mmg pon..[bermonolog sndiri].ad sdikit ksedran disini)

tp bak kata PAPA TEOH,

"Bkn TAUBAT yg SALAH,tp TAU BUAT yg SALAH!!"

haha.mmg btl pn.

tp keisafan 2 mmg ad la(wlaupn sesaat dua.haha!)

plan nk dtg lwat gler n nk stay sat je kt pdang 2 tp mmandangkn unsur2 kbaikn lbih kuat dlm diri ni,ak sgera mngubah fikirn.

dgn mke yg SELAMBA dan TIDAK BERSALAH ak pn brjlan ke pdang

(mmg buat mke poyo la.haha)

nsib bek xamk attendance,lau x mati katak.

hihi..

TP

tidak dijangka ak la org yg pling beria bersorak-sarai(wt word sndri.jgn ikt.pngaruh bruk.hihi.)

nk trcabut tkak ak mnjerit.mmg xtau malu.haha!

bajet bwak buku g pdang sbb pd mlenye ak igtkn nk STUDY smbil2 sbb exam da dkat.

konon la!BUWEEKKK!!!

xbkak bku pn.poyo je lbh.

mmg lpe dunia.haha!

ksimpulannya ak SERONOK mluahkn ke'gian'an ak tk mnjerit ni.

uishhh.tringat zaman dolu2 mse ari sukan kt SEKOLA.

ak jdk pngerusi umah sukan.mmg smangat gler.

slama ak 5 taun kt sekola tu, mse ak F5 la 1st time umah HIJAU mnang.

mmg bangge gler.

mmg siang mlm ak plun tuk ari sukan.

hiasan prbarisan sume buat sme2.mmg seronok!

ak seyesly ske zaman sekola ak dlu.

mmg la rse trkongkong dok asrama 5taun tp ak xmnyesal.

kwn2 ak mmg BEST.

smpai sekrg ktowg still keep in touch.

tringat zaman2 ak kne DIMERIT dulu.

hakhakhak.nakal gler kot.hihi

ak si RULE BREAKER.gler!

RINDUnyerrrr!!!

trase nk lek je zman sekola dulu!huuuu=-(

tp mmg NOSTALGIC la.huhu.

my best moment : KAWAD KAKI peringkat kbangsaan

mmg ak xleh lpe.

ak pn xsdar cmne leh smpai thap 2.

but it was really worth!

SY SUKA JADI BUDAK SEKOLA!!!!

whuhuuu..ni la ak zman SEKOLA dolu2.innocent je kn mke dulu.haha!

jgn trtipu.nmpk je mke cm2 tp gler DEGIL mse sekola dlu.

SEKARANG????

taaaa raaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

ni la ak version skrg!!!!!haha!!

beza kn????

jgn komen pe2 k.

hihi.

daaaaa...

EMO!!!!!!!!!!!!

looOoooo........

lalallalalalalala.......

doink3!!

(buat bnyi plik2.kebOsanan melanda lg!)

arini sume org EMO!!

ckp psal EMO ni sbnrnye ak pn trase nk EMO gk ni.

hurmm ak xtau la npe arini spoil gler.

sume org EMO.

mud ak da la elok je..steady arini

TAPI ble mlm mnjelma

ari ku yg bhgia ni d'spoil'kn

huishhhh!!

bengangnyyerr(tp td jela skrg da ok.haha!!jnji HAPPY!)

ak pn xphm knape mlm ni bnyak sgt meeting.

lg nk exam lg nk mnggila buat meeting.

ak pn xphm ape function++benefit dr sume MEETING2 nih!!

xmsuk exam pn.

ni naqibah ak pn EMO mlm ni sbb ak mtk cancel usrah.

adoyai, bkn xnk tp mmg ad keje nk wt cmne.

da plak akk 2 bg statement 'slamat b'KOT'

(statement agk mmerli)

huishh mkn dlm..hukhuk.

bkn sje xmo akk.jgn mrh.huu.

sob3=-(

xpsal2 kne perli.

sdh tl..huuu..

member ak 1 lg.

psal buat prop nye psal dok EMO trik mke kt ak,

pning tl la.

ak pn xphm nape keje2 ni nk tolak kt ak.

xtau pe rational nye.

nk kte ak xde keje,ad.

nk kte ak rjn,MESTI LA..x

nk kte ak yg volunteer PN x.

xpsal2 ak yg jdk mngse EMO.

mmg la ak xnk buat da org pndai2 decide.

pe2 inform la dlu tnye,ad budi bhs cket

(wlaupn cm xbpe pnting.haha)

tp seyesly xde mud nk wt keje lau org dok sruh2 ni.

huisshhh...

sbnrnye leh je nk tolerate.xpe2.

lynkn jela.

mlm ni ak jnji nk date ngn 'DINASOUR' lme sket tp dsbbkn MEETING2 yg ntah pape ni ak trpksa mpersingktkn date ktowg ni.

(dinner sme je padahal.haha!)

tp xbest gk la sbb da plan nk spend time ngn die dinner.

huuuu=(

xpela.

pOstpone...huuu...

td kwn2 ak pn xsceria dan gler sperti ari bese..

bohsan la mlm ni.

ak pn mngambil kputusan utk PERINTAH BERKURUNG dlm blik.

mngasingkn diri dr prsekitaran yg jiwenye kcau dan EMO.

mmandang EXAM sudh dekat ak tkar la mode ak mlm ni

STUDY MODE!!!!

subject : GRAMMAR!!!!

fuhhh!!!bhagia la PAPA TEOH ak study subject die.

haha!!

i'm sleepless

i never expect that i will be this way.

woke up and stay very late at night to finish my 'keje sekola'.

wootwoooot....

suddenly brubah jdk RAJIN.

prcaye x?percaye x??

haha jgn prcaye, trick je ni.

(sat ja ni.sat lg brmls2an lek.haha.)

tau x bdn ni rse nk trcabut je, terbelah 20.

haha.exaggerate!

npe 20???eh ikt ske la nk bape pn.haha!

hurmm skt2 bdn ni disebabkn ingin mnunjukkn ke'atlit'ian ku arini.

mngejutkn jgak hsilnye,ak brjaya mndapatkn mata utk umah sukan ak.

sume ak pkat redah je.

xsgke mbuahkn hsil.

fuhhhhh.brat2 bdn ni pn leh lg nk mng'atlit'kn dri ni.haha!

(1 pncapaian yg diluar jngkaan.hakhak)

tp..

akibat x wt warm up skt2 bdn ni.

skrg trase kaki cm nk cramp.huk3=(

xpe2 brbaloi skt2 ni.

(^_^)seronok3!!!!

hihiiii...

huishh arini bru igt dpt brehat dgn aman.

namun apakan daya Miss Pet lbih mnyayangiku lbh drp ak mnyangi tido ku ini.

(ayat kalis geram.huu)

sje je die dngki g bg keje bnyak2,xpsal2 ak xtdo mlm ni.

huisshhhh.

da la ptg td xde mse kne jdk atlit xb'iktiraf' kt pdang.

hishhhh.kusutnye la.JIWA KACAU!!whuuu~

xpe Miss Pet 'jasamu' ini akn ku kenang lau ak xfail social studies.

haha!

(uishhh bnyi mlampau ni,awat cm nk fail lak??!!)

silap2.

'jasamu' akn ku kenang lau ak dpt jwb paper ngn mke yg slambe dn ati yg riang.

haha!

lgpn 'SERONOK' sgt ni wt keje sekola bnyak2 cmni.haha!

'seronok sgttttt!!!'

(nada sinis(*_-)wink2!!)

kne tkar career la pasni.

jdk 'burung antu' yg brjaya!!haha.

thanks a lot to Miss Pet.

love u Miss Pet.

muaxxxxxx!(nada perli lg.haha.)

Should i get mad???

just completed my 'keje sekola'.fuuhhhhh lega.

really tired today.fasting but then jdk 'pgawai x briktiraf' di pdang arini.

kre rjn gk la ak arini brjaya mnyiapkn keja ak wlaupn rse da sparuh nyawa.haha.

(ishhh, lri tajuk ni...)

hurmmm actually xde pe sgt pn but i really think that i should write something to release dis unease feeling.

am i bad?

ptt ke ak trase ati?

just now i read through his FB inbox n to be honest i read his messages with another girl (a girl whom he said looks alike ME!)-

not really a big matter but suddenly i felt so sad.

from what i can see they are just friend but i didn't know why i hardly take it that way even i know that nothin' special between them.

i really don't know what to do.

i don't want to take it wrongly but as he never mention anything bout their relationship it makes me however feel a bit sad and frustrated.

someone help me please...huuuu~

nyah la rse ni!!xske!!

suddenly trase lmah je bdn ni.

i don't know why, somehow i feel like i was cheated!

hate dis feeling.

i trust him

but somehow i doubt it.

i'm just a normal girl..........................

PAPA TEOH (^_^)

hye...

opps!!!

assalamualaikum...hihiii...

hurmmmm td niat da mbuak2 nk wt esaimen tbe2 trase layu lak mata ni..kuyu je...huuu.lately bdn ni ltih2 je.xtau la nape.uish,exam mkin dkat kpale ni pn trase cm senoneng je.pg ni ak bgn awl!hehe.hbat x pkul 6.12 pg da bgn??hehe,sbnrnye sy da dikejutkn oleh en.izuddin (tbe2 nk skema.thanks b!!).knyataan yg sbnrnye sy kne bkak gate hostel,haha (lau x ssh cket nk bgn awl pg ngah brcti ni).

today my lectures are just like always,xdela special cgt pn but suddenly in LDS class i got a shocking news.my beloved papa Teoh (our LDS lctrer since our 1st sem) will be retired soon!sdih.huu.even 'papa' mmg agk annoying bfore dis but we really love him.n he loves us too,even he never tells us but we know he loves us.

papa we love u!!!please don't leave us.....

i really love n respect him.he is a very great educator.i wish that i will be like him.'papa' mmg plik2 sket tp die bek ati.dlu die pnh ckp ak sleepy-head sbb slalu tdo dlm kls die,trase die mmg annoying gile, tp skrg die la lctrer trbek kt mktb ni.(haha hyperbole!)tp siyesly die mmg bek n sweet.(pji lbh2 pdahal ngah pning esaimen die xsiap2 lg)haha,pe2 hidup msti ENJOY!!!love u daddy!!!!

whOm shOuld be bLaMe????ReNdanG KEtuPat or mE???

ak brmonolog :

" ni sume rendang ktupat pnye psal, xpsal2 naik 2 kilo!!"

tu la. raya sakan, ketupat lmang sume ak telan. mmg xigt dunia...

kelmarin ak mnimbang brat bdan krn mrasakn bdn ku smakin la brat. uishhhhh!!!!awt nek smpai 2kilo ni???!!!!!!nsib bek da wt preparation reducing my weight in fasting month..fuhhhh!!!!!lega....huhu.

since that day when I knew that my weight increasing n i keep gaining weight, sy pn brtekat utk mngurngkn pngambilan mknan brlemak n nasi. bkn la nk slim sgt tp nk mlenyapkn sgale lmak2 yg trbonjol2 disekeliling bdn ku ini. xksh la, my b said,"xpela,jgn rsau b xksh pn....". i dnt wanna b ppan lapis or lidi but just fit enough to be comfortable with my own body. rse xslesa je smenjak2 bdn mkin naik ni. uishhhhh....

xpe...kuat smngat2x!!!!!boleh3!!!!

peringatan utk diri sndiri. len kli mkn 2 igt dunia sket, jgn main telan je sume yg ad dpn mata. than2 sket. kang x kwen lg bdan da mcm tong..owhhh tidakkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!

kurg mkn. kurg nasi. lily boleh!!!!

ANOTHER DAY IN HERE........

I try to find short poem to start working on my task but then I just get through this one..

"Love is not a thing to understand.
Love is not a thing to feel.
Love is not a thing to give and receive.
Love is a thing only to become
And eternally be. "

I think that is why I didn't understand why mom and dad are being couple for years.They are different(what can I say). But, when I read this poem I realize that love don't have to be understood. Maybe it just belong to them. to mom and dad......

Now...

I'm here...coming back to this place.in this room.in this colleague.I don't really know what do I feel rite now.But, what do I know is I have a bundle of work to do!!!!haha!!I'm 'so happy'.work!!work!!work!!!

what did happen now??

messy...........

i just can't think bout it anymore.what do you want to do,just do.you want to take revenge?i said, WHATEVER.i just don't want to mess up my mind with all these nonsense things.for god sake,i don't really care..i made up my mind, i just don't care anymore...let you be you, n me be me....

i remember.....

one of my lecturers said that happy is depends on us,on how we perceive happy is.so, i decided to be happy unconditionally, what i mean here, i just don't want to depend on others anymore. there is no one that can be blamed for my unhappiness. so, i just wanna be a happy person. everyone has their own 'circumtances'.don't make it complicated. everyone should take care of their own 'circumtances', so am i. i don't wanna make reasons for my unhappiness anymore. I AM HAPPY...

i realize....

what ms.Siti told me this evening are all true.we are not really good. we didn't show any great effort anymore.we are not outstanding like others. there is no 'but' if we really work hard on ourselves, to change, to improve. we just didn't do anything and just stay still until now. everyone seems tired, stressed up, and no longer close with one another. everything is a mess now. i wanna do something but what can i do??please tell me........

perit!!!!

sktnyeerrrr ati ni.da 3 sem ak kt cni,tp trase lg ssh nk phm org kt cni.plik la.nk organize something tp nk tggu org lain bg idea.ble wt cdgn ckp xnk.cdangn sume nk bntah,but then ble org proceed organize xpuas ati plak sbb xbncng.WHAT EVER!!da last minute bru nk tnye.suda la.please la be matured.kte bkn bdak 9 taun ok.please la......

sekali lagi..

sekali lg.

sekali lg.

sekali lg.

byk sgt sekali lg smpai xtrbilng.

sekali lg ak mnyakitkn ati kwn ak.sebenarnya ak sktkn ati ak sndri.xtau la stiap ak ckp bnda yg mnyinggung prasaan org len sk jgak sbnarnya mnyakitkn ati ak sndri.ak xniat nk wt cm2 tp xtau la.mgkin sbb ape yg die wt sblm ni ni msih wt ak trase.die kwn ak.kwn baik ak.die mmg baik tp dlu die pnh wt bnda yg ak tl2 ssh nk trima.mgkin ak xleh trima.pndendam ke ak ni???ak bkn nk mblas dendam atau bnci kt die cme ak trase trkilan dgn ape yg die pnh wt.die xrse brslah ke??/bkn ak mghrap die mlutut kt ak skurg2nye mtk la maaf pling xpn jgn la wt mcm xde ape2 yg jadi.ak jadi ssh nk trime.ape yg die pnh ckp pd ak mmg ak ssh nk lpe.die ktuk ak die perli ak die brckap blakng ak sdangkn ak da luangkn mse dgar mslh die,bg die smngat mse die ssh.bila die da wt kputusan ak ni da xde mkna.ap yg die ckp dlu sume die lnggar.brckp mcm brsumpah tp sndri mlanggar sumpah.ckp mndabik dada,ykin.tp akhirnya mkan dri.xprnah ak jmpa 'kwn baik' yg mcm tu seumur hidup ak.ak kcewa sgt.bkn ak bnci die tp ak ssh nk trime ape yg die da wt.dia kte dri die baik.die mmg baik pd mata org lain.tp bkn ak.ak knl die siape.ak xkte die jhat.tp xjgak baik..ak jgak xbek,n ak xprnah mngaku dri ak baik sbb ak mmg xprnah baik.

aPaKah haRi iNi???

mlm ni cm blur2 la...bosannn.td tngok cte Megan Fox, 'Jennifer's Body'..wow!!!cte ni extremely superb!!!haha..best giler..meremang bulu roma tngok.huhu.

sbnrnye mlm ni spttnye sy n rakan2 ribena sy wt props for our dramatization on Macbeth, but suddenly a few of my friends have to complete the bulletin as they need to hand it in tomorrow..'morrow never see' (ayat schu sbg Lady Macbeth dlm drama. hahaha). so, now i'm free!!!not really free, i have essay to be complited and make preparation for tomorrow debate but..............(hurmmm.. wat selamba badak je. haha) bored la..ngah cari feel ni nk wt 'keje sekola' hihi..

hurmmmm..tonight xleh kcau 'die'. as tomorrow he has last exam paper, Math. so, i just don't want to disturb him as he need to focus for tomorrow. tp sat jela..mlm skit t kcau balik..hihi~'b....chaiyok2!!!!'

hurmmm what should i do now????

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blur...............................

huu~

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sy dan mereka :

i'm a person who studies in training teachers college..

it is a gift from my college..(haha..hadiah la sgt kn??)

hurmmm..itulah kalung yg slalu tergantung kt leher sy..

tp matric card tu palik sket,nme je matric card tp nombor matrik xde pn..hahaha~

'pelik tp benar'

sy xtau pn nombor matrik sy..huu~

cbe teka pe 2???

haha!tu la sepit rambut sy, i called it 'ketam'

it is a gift from my b..

not sure whether he or his friend yg plih..

it is quite big for me, but it is really nice n comfort..

so, thanks b..

hihii~

these are my another things.

purple is my colour..

that is my purse and it was given by my friend on my 18th birthday..

thanks~

and yg lg 1 tu sarung for my phone..

who gave it to me????

me, myself..haha~

beli sendiri la...

i can't really remember where did i get it from...

i think maybe i got the phone cover when my sis n i went to Air Hitam, then suddenly i saw it n it is catchy, looks sweet so tnpa berfikir panjang sy pn beli la..haha~

hurmmmm skali pndang xsure apakah ia..

tp 2 kali pndang, la....tabung rupanya...

hahahhaha...

this was given by one of my close senior..

she is really nice.

she gave it to me on the teacher's day..

(plik jgak la, i'm not yet a teacher. tp org da bg amik jela kn??hihii~)

hurmmm..

tp persoalannya, boleh ke ni nk mnyimpan duit ni???

hihiiii~

what will you do????

huuuuuu~

(mengeluh panjang)

i really don't know what to do. i have a friend that removed me from her list of friends in Facebook. i'm not worry or 'kcik hati' for what she has done as i understand how does she feel. Instead i really worry about her. she really determines to get out from this institute as she feels that no one does like her. But, she has no idea about that. actually people do love her, but she behaves in such way that people can't accept and she always misuses people's trust, even her own friends. That's why people start avoiding her. i try to tell her but i really don't have the idea on how am i going to tell her about this, i'm really afraid that i will insult her. i know that this is not right n i'm not a really good friend. she may think that i have stabbed her back but she never know that i LOVE her as a friend. i really do want to tell her as i don't want her to think that she has been isolated but i don't have the strength to tell her the truth for the reasons why people keep avoiding her. she is not a bad person, but she never realizes that the way she treats people make people treat her that way. To the person that i has mentioned, you are not bad n people are not hating you, just you are the one who should ask yourself, what you have done. people do love you and give you chances to change but you didn't realize and didn't appreciate it. i do love you. sorry for not being a very good friend...............

lalalalalalalaaaaaaaa......

today???

i woke up late..

today????

is 24th of may 2010

today???

is monday

today???

i really love him

today???

i called my mom n i miss her damn much!!

today???

everything goes smoothly..

today???

is 24th of May 2010...

so,

today...

is 'our' ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!

hooreyyyyyy!!!

happy anniversary b!!!!

sorry for being late wishing you..

huuu~

but late is better than never...(hihiii..kn2???)

I LOVE U B!!!

today, i was so happy as i just called my mom. my mom suddenly became a very talkative person, unlike before she always ended up my call earlier. she told me about so many things, my sister has a new boyfriend, my dad whom misses me tried so many times to call me, and she also told "akak, balik nanti kak farah nk ajak akak dgn iz pergi kursus skor A" (hurmmm cm bese la...die da wt schedule da..ni lom smpai rumah lg ni...huuuuu)..hurmmm...that is my MOM...(slalu dok kalut..hihiii)

i know that she misses me..n dad also..i miss them all..

my sister,k.fara..

i am not really know what happen to her but according to what my mom said, "akak mogok lg,die xckp ngn ibu, mkn pn jarang2, akak tu da mkin kurus da" and also, "akak da ada boyfriend baru.." (hurmmm xtau la kesahihan cte ibu ni..hihii..sbb bese interpretation ibu xsme ngn ape yg jdk..hihiii) i really know my sister, if she won't speak n keep isolate herself from people that means she has problems. she always burden herself with problems, she doesn't want to share and tell people about her problems. she always 'moody' and i will be the victim to be scolded by her. but, at all i never hate her instead i really respect and love her. she is the only sister that i have and she is the greatest one!!!I LOVE YOU!!!!

my dad....

he is a very busy kind of man..(kalah perdana menteri tau)..he never expresses his feeling, whether he loves me or not. but, i really sure that he loves me even he never tell me. maybe he loves me more than my siblings because i know that we used to be closed when i was really young. he never visits me or sends me here as i study far away from our hometown. i know that he loves and cares for me, he never comes to see me or even says anything when i said that i want to continue my study in Penang. i know that he was reluctant to let me go, but he never said so. he didn't even send me for the registration day. until one of my friends asked me whether i still have dad, and i answered "yes, i have. he just doesn't have time to send me here".

he was really busy. but, i still believe that dad loves me. my mom told me just now that my dad misses me. he tried to call me but he doesn't even have my number!!that is my dad....i really know that he loves me n i also LOVE HIM....