Shrinking heart in a gloomy day~ T____T

Assalamualaikum..

owhh..hari ni mmemang aku terasa berblog itu adalah NECESSARY!

Ya tuhanku xtau la apa silapnya tp aku terasa sangat MOODY. gila ke MOODY xtentu pasal???x..ada pasalnya. tp BIARLAH. nyah la kamu dari fikiran. *xnak pikir. tolong la. betul-betul xnak pikir (menahan diri sgt-sgt >___< )

Sekarang tengah bulan puasa, 3rd day of RAMADHAN. jadi segala-galanya perlulah ditahan. termasuk lah nak marah, mencarut, menangis n etc.(seumpama dgnnya. *especially negative feelings) KENA TAHAN! But, really. today is a very unhappy day for me. maybe i'm homesick. maybeeee~ maybe i'm unhappy with someone* or is it with everyone??-- xtau la ye. orrrr maybe i am too sensetive *iye ke?? xtau jugak T_____T tapi sangat la xbest bila bangun-bangun tido je terasa dahi ni berkerut seribu, mulut ni muncung sedepa *cm ni ha > buleh sangkut hanger.-- It is not my intention to be UNHAPPY or look UNHAPPY. but seriously i don't have the concrete reasons!but just being UNHAPPY today~

tadi kat kelas aku try recover by teasing people * i mean my classmates-- but surprisingly it did hurt someone's feelings. maybe i was gone overboard. (selalu memang la jugak aku gurau OVER! but i just could't stop) Sorry~ +_____+ but today seriously i just try to make the mood be more lively but unfortunately it went another way round~ dummy me. blame me. xtau kenapa tapi tiba-tiba tadi aku terasa 'touching' n i cried! in class! but i wept my tears before anyone could see it. "Lily kenapa ni?", a friend of mine asked me, but i just couldn't bring myself to tell the truth then i lied, "xde apa, rasa mengantuk..." *tipu sunat ke tuh??TIPU!!mana ada tipu sunat!!!!

After that incident in class, i was thinking to myself and had the monologue inside me' " I don't feel like want to tease anyone anymore and FULLSTOP!". Kadang-kadang aku terasa cam 'buduh' la jugak dok kacau-kacau orang but it just for the sake to hear people's laughter and make people happy. maybe i was overboard. so i decided to just STOP.

Ya tuhan, dugaan betul bulan puasa ni kan...semua benda terasa xkena. Kawan-kawan saya mintak maaf. saya sayang kamu semua. it is not saya sengaja nak 'mulut jahat' teasing you all, just with the intention to make everyone HAPPY~ bianee~ -____-"