Assalamualaikum...
Today i feel so down, don't know why. keep crying n crying. feel so bad. HOMESICK. but it is not
really bcause i miss home that i feel so down, but a lot of thing! i feel so disappointed of my friend. it's not that i'm mad but just disappointed as i tried so hard to help her but it seems like she doesn't change at all. not really at all but becoming worse. not that she is that bad, but she keeps losing herself, her mind in her own world. she can't differentiate what should be prioritize. i tried so hard to make her understand that what i'm doing for her is not a burden, she is not a burden for me, it's ok to wait long in front of her door waiting for her, accompany her for her dinner ( although i try to avoid eating dinner ), it's ok even if she says harsh words to me, everything is so fine to me as long as i can make her feel better. but how could i make her understand that what i really hope that is she can at least try to change. try to become normal back, be her own self, be more punctual n prioritize what is more important!
I'm not asking for ur 'THANK YOU' but just show some effort to change. please..i'm an ordinary and normal human being, not an angel or even God. I may tolerate n be patient in some ways/things, but everything has its own limit. i really try to be patient, still hoping n waiting. i'm afraid that i can't wait anymore, i just want to ease ur burden by sharing it, hope u understand dear. i love u as u r my friend. i'm hoping n praying that u can come back to normal n back 2 reality. be urself sayang...but i'm grateful that i can share my uneasiness with someone. whom i really admire n trust. thank u madam for ur advice. i really need it n i'm really grateful....
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